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Wed, Jul. 21st, 2004, 01:36 pm
aye aye aye

SO I SAID I'D NEVER POST AGAIN BUT WHAT THE FUCK- MOST OF YOU ARE PEOPLE I'D LIKE TO REMAIN IN CONTACT WITH AT LEAST A LIL-EVEN THOUGH SCHOOL IS OVER AND MANY OF US ARE LEAVING OR WHATEVER..AND SOME OF YOU I KNOW FROM ELSEWHERE...ANYWAY
HERE IS MY CELL NUMBER
NEVER SAY I DIDNT TRY
9172024991

PS- UPDATE
I WORK IN LONG ISLAND CITY
I AM MARRIED
MY NAILS ARE GREEN
HUNTER AWAITS

Sun, Mar. 21st, 2004, 02:56 pm

im leaving live journal. i don't post in it anyway. wish yall the best. blah blah.

Tue, Mar. 9th, 2004, 01:50 pm

i'm about to get ready and go see boy. there will be no baum chica baum as we have yet to figure out where we can because there is no fucking privacy. michelle suggested i bring him back to her house. why do i sound like i'm buying a whore? anyway. no. i want to mack, but not in a starbucks bathroom or mcd's or michelles house. i'm not that desperate, yet.

Fri, Mar. 5th, 2004, 11:10 am

updates:
1.i got a job, finally. in queens. come visit me.
2.my sister is turning 2. in a week. come kill her.
3.ilz is old- haning with him today for bday. the only. the one.
4.mishi will and i say will get the pun!!
5.filz is being extra emo. boy him a cracker.
6.in july, i am going to have the coolest roommate. she's bisexual. her b/f is my friend. hmmm...no!
7.i bought a jeans jacket with fake tears. ha.
8.i'm seeing the boy tomorrow. baum chica baum.
9.will has a crush on a blonde. perfect.
10.no one ever calls my cell phone and if they do, wait, they don't. 917 202 4991
11.my brother has dissapeared. if you find him, call the above listed number.
12. if you know a cute girl, who would like to date a boy with his own basement, hehe, let me know, he's waiting. oh, he's in a band and plays guitar. wow. a hunk. a dunk dunk.
13. vadim imed me yesterday for the first time in a while- i bet no one was online. slut.
alright children, my life is boring so i talked about everyone elses. the end.

Tue, Mar. 2nd, 2004, 09:00 am
for you

for filZ

I'd like to close my eyes, go numb
but there's a cold wind coming from
the top of the highest high rise today
it's not a breeze cause it blows hard
yes and it wants me to discard
the humanity I know
watched the warmth blow away

So don't let the world bring you down
not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old

So do you think I should adhere
to that pressing new frontier
and leave in my wake, a trail of fear
should I hold my head up high
and throw a wrench in spokes by
leaving the air behind me clear

So don't let the world bring you down
not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old

So don't let the world bring you down
not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old
before you grow old
where did it go?
where did it go?
where did it go?
where did it go?
<3 gabu

Sun, Feb. 29th, 2004, 04:52 pm
last night....i said..

so last night was one of those silly nights where the guy walks you to where you are sleeping and you want him to come in but he cant and you keep pushing him in but he wont come in and everytime you think you are done making out you decide its not enough so you continue making out and then you think hes leaving and he makes a few steps back and you turn around but he pushes you back into him and you continue kissing and then he says hes going to leave again and you turn around once more expecting just that and he pushes you against the car and continues to kiss you and you can feel pressure against your vagina and it feels so good and then he kisses your neck and you kiss him everywhere and you know he needs to go but you dont care so you continue to make out on the street and then he picks you up and puts you in the edge of the fence and your legs are spread and you can feel him up against you again completely taking every bit of strength you have left and forcing you to put it all into this experience and the kissing wont stop so you don't argue with that and then you think its over but its not and he finally decided its enough but you wont let that happen so you push him back into you and you feel him against you and it feels even better and you ask him to come in again and he says that he needs to see you again really soon and you know that thats not soon enough but its the best he can do so you take it and like it and you finally kiss for the last time and you say your goodbyes where you actually say each other's names and then you see him walking away and you watch him leave and he does the little jumpy thing where you click your feet together and he hears you laugh from a distance and it's still not enough because you know you want more and omg...im so geigh

and so are you!

Fri, Feb. 27th, 2004, 06:26 pm
some new pics i thought were amusing...

...and....

Sat, Feb. 21st, 2004, 02:06 am
godamn

i really hate distance.

Mon, Feb. 16th, 2004, 01:02 am
see this i like

me: well my day was pretty boring
him: aw that sucks, well ill make it exciting in 10 minutes, im gonna give you a call
me: haha
me: alright

[ i am such a sucker]

Sun, Feb. 15th, 2004, 03:27 pm
Here's to the weekend...

so the weekend began friday after i left early from school...my mom decided that for her 43rd birthday she would get a piercing. she also decided it would be fun to get something done together so we hit up Vinny's in sheepsheadbay and she got her belly pierced and i got a stud in my nose, right side.</strong></font>

mishipoop says that might mean im gay but how much gayer can one person be? exactly. so afterwards my moms and i went with my little sister to eat dinner and then she dropped me off at michelle's. bunch of kids were there, izil , vadimfurman , lickmyanushole , and others.

so saturday was be cheesy day and i had a valentine. i had one last year but it didn't turn out the way i had hoped, so this was the first time i actually felt alright being lame. and i got gifts. thats the best part. i got a bracelet, a gizmo shirt, candy, chocolates and more food. man i love food. anyway, it was a good day but one of these a year is plenty. i wandered williamsburg, then greenpoint, then williamsburg again and finally the city. i wound up seeing rosie and her friend there and that was nice.

i was wearing this hot outfit under my clothes but it came to no use since no warm places were available and i felt bad holding up the bathroom at starbucks. oh man, it was dirty too. just the way i wanted it to be. but nope, nada, zilch. it's okay- there was a request to wear it again next week, and take it off immediately. hmm...im horny and i won't lie about it.

today is my mom's birthday and we went out for breakfast. i bought her cakes  from the bakery and a card and the last line was..."i don't understand you, never will, but i love you. mostly"...her response was " at least your honest and i love you too"...eh i hate when my mom makes me want to love her, eh, it's a battle between "you are a cuntmothafuckdiebitchliarbastard" and "you are so great". yall know what i mean. we are going out for dinner soon, VIETNAMESE=YUM.

So...tomorrow i am seeing !CAT POWER! with the allmighty

lazarus501 and it's going to be wonderful.

...and wednesday is the SKA IS DEAD show at the knitting factory...i'm gonna dance my ass off and all the good stuff. lesbian sexin it up with muh girls.

...and saturday...STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO...3 days after catch 22....that's fucking funny...

wow- a long post- i must be bored...and now back to Ghost World.

<3 gabu

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